We were bound by vows
But weakened by trials,
and tribulations thereafter.
A home that was full of laughter
was gradually replaced.
Now pain and regret stands in its place.
A lifetime of love that was promised to be
turned out to be just a fantasy;
a dream that I was awakened from,
a possibility that would not come.
I tried to close my eyes and go back
to where we were,
back to when we put each other first.
I wanted to see the smiles on our face,
the ones now that have been erased.
I wanted to feel that warmth of serenity,
The way I felt when you held me…
Once upon a time.
But, you wanted me to give and give
and never question what your motive is.
You’re insistent upon putting guilt in my heart
Because I can no longer be silent and play the part.
You want a “good little wife” who will
let your ‘lives’ be.
A role that will destroy the existence of me
You have drained my hearts last drop that was
You have taken the last sweat and tears of my love.
Have you ever felt that way? Like you’ve given the last of yourself to someone only to be looked at like you never gave enough? I wonder, is this how we see Jesus sometimes? He gave His life so that we could have life more abundantly but He didn’t work out one situation and now what He did wasn’t enough. Being hurt is not easy. We have hurt others and we all have been hurt at some point in our lives. While in sin we had to rely on our own selves to get over and deal with the pain but while in Christ, He will teach us how to guard our hearts from the evils of this world, if we will invite Him in. It may not be easy at first but if we continue to seek Him – He will mend our broken pieces so that we may be testaments when we show our healed wounds and turn others to Him, just as He did .
Dear Heavenly Father,
The pain that weighs me down feels unbearable. I don’t know how to get over this. I don’t know what to do but Lord the word says that You are near the brokenhearted. Be near me now Lord. Let me do good to those who have hurt me so that Your ways can be exemplified. Let me show Your love even when my heart hurts too much to look past in my own strength.
In the name of Jesus I pray,
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