My Words

Matthew 12:36 (NASB)
36 But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgment.

Lord, forgive me. Can you think of times where careless words escaped your mouth? I surely can on a daily basis even when I try not to. But it’s that one thing that comes up that I can’t just let go and pray about it. Isaiah 64:6 says, “For all of us have become like one who is unclean, And all our righteous deeds are like a filthy garment…”  Every day I find myself asking for forgiveness but the Word says that there is no condemnation in Jesus. So, why do I continue to ask for forgiveness for the same things over and over? God will not forgive me anymore than He did the first time I asked. God does not accept guilt as an offering for His grace and mercy. 2 Corinthians 7:10 (NASB) says, For the sorrow that is according to the will of God produces a repentance without regret, leading to salvation, but the sorrow of the world produces death. He knew I would start off destroying the life He gave me to be a good steward over. His Son, our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has already paid the debt to cover my raggedness.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Your grace and mercy is poured out upon us at every breath we take. Thank You for sending Your Son to cleanse us of our sins. Lord, let me accept Your grace as freely as You continue to give it. Forgive me for not always instantly realizing that You fulfilled the greatest act of love so that I may live freely with a repentant heart. Let my heart turn from the wickedness that it displays through my words. Let my words be acceptable in Your sight. You are are mighty, You are wonderful, and loving.

In the name of Jesus I pray,





On My Way

I am a work in progress;
A product of pain I confess.
I never knew the comforts of love
Though those who gave didn’t know what it was
My resources poured into me
A cup filled, overflowing with empty.
A cycle, I poured out into my own
Absent of the greatest love ever known.
I am a work in progress;
A product of pain I must confess.
Then it was the Lord that came to me
Filling the voided spaces in need.



Dear Heavenly Father,

Help me Lord to forgive myself the way that You have forgiven me. I am an empty vessel, broken in many ways, needing Your healing and guidance to be a better mother, to be a better child, to be a better person, to be a better disciple for Your Word. Fill me with Your Spirit so that my void is filled with You and You overflow onto those around me because I fail in my own strength. I fail but through You I can do all things.

In the name of Jesus I pray,



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Broken Vows

via Daily Prompt: Betrayed

We were bound by vows
But weakened by trials,
and tribulations thereafter.
A home that was full of laughter
was gradually replaced.
Now pain and regret stands in its place.
A lifetime of love that was promised to be
turned out to be just a fantasy;
a dream that I was awakened from,
a possibility that would not come.
I tried to close my eyes and go back
to where we were,
back to when we put each other first.
I wanted to see the smiles on our face,
the ones now that have been erased.
I wanted to feel that warmth of serenity,
The way I felt when you held me…
Once upon a time.
But, you wanted me to give and give
and never question what your motive is.
You’re insistent upon putting guilt in my heart
Because I can no longer be silent and play the part.
You want a “good little wife” who will
let your ‘lives’ be.
A role that will destroy the existence of me
You have drained my hearts last drop that was
You have taken the last sweat and tears of my love.



Have you ever felt that way? Like you’ve given the last of yourself to someone only to be looked at like you never gave enough? I wonder, is this how we see Jesus sometimes? He gave His life so that we could have life more abundantly but He didn’t work out one situation and now what He did wasn’t enough. Being hurt is not easy. We have hurt others and we all have been hurt at some point in our lives. While in sin we had to rely on our own selves to get over and deal with the pain but while in Christ, He will teach us how to guard our hearts from the evils of this world, if we will invite Him in. It may not be easy at first but if we continue to seek Him – He will mend our broken pieces so that we may be testaments when we show our healed wounds and turn others to Him, just as He did .

Dear Heavenly Father,

The pain that weighs me down feels unbearable. I don’t know how to get over this. I don’t know what to do but Lord the word says that You are near the brokenhearted. Be near me now Lord.  Let me do good to those who have hurt me so that Your ways can be exemplified. Let me show Your love even when my heart hurts too much to look past in my own strength.

In the name of Jesus I pray,




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I always pray and ask God what I should write about before I post anything so, I wait patiently for an answer, sometimes it may be a few days in between my last post. I do not want to say anything that will hurt or hinder anyone from receiving Christ or help, if needed. So the scripture, “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed” ( 2 Corinthians 4: 8-9, NLT), came to me this morning when I woke and then I walked out into the living room and a sermon was on speaking of this very scripture, that was my confirmation.

So I went to church this past Sunday and received the side-eye the entire time I was there. No, I wasn’t inappropriately dressed or acting inappropriately. Under the judgement of the church folk I did not allow it to deter me from praising God. I woke yesterday morning, worn and with a heavy heart. How can this be? I couldn’t even get out of bed! I laid in bed depressed. I began praying and questioning God’s purpose for my life, was I only born to birth my children because I see more purpose in them than I do myself. I began asking what are my next steps, and what would HE have me do. I lay there….no answer. I became even more burdened. I then began praying that God allowed me to remain content and if that is my purpose raise them up to be great in HIS sight and will, to cover them.

I am new to this, and in the past I found great difficulty in this challenge but we cannot allow the people around us to determine our praise to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. “Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God” (2 Corinthians 4:1-2, NLT). So we find our fragile selves in the midst of tribulation and the devil says, don’t praise God when your life has shown nothing to be thankful for but I raised my hands in praise to thank God for what HE is working out of me… the cares of this world. “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal” (2 Corinthians 4: 16-18, NLT).

Dear Heavenly Father,

You are GOOD! In spite of what we endure here on earth. Uphold us in Your Righteous Hand. Renew our strength. Lord, let our eyes remain on You when our world may be crumbling around us. Let us be reminded daily of Your love Lord, because only Your love is constant and unconditional.

In the name of Jesus!




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Chipped Away

I submit this with a humble heart of repentance to God, and that my life can be an  example with love for the next generations after me or to whoever reads this that may be lost or considering. Many Christians like to pretend they came out of the womb holy but everyone has a past and sometimes our scars are what ministers to others, not our ability to quote scriptures.

I grew up very shy and very quiet, the baby girl. I grew up in church. As a matter of fact, I was in church service about 4 times per week. I was told what to do, when to do it, I was restricted into a very rigid guideline. I was in church but I never knew what love was, affection, kindness, gentleness. I never experienced these. Now, do not get me wrong my parents were not abusive but they could not give me what they had not received as children, and had not allowed God to fill the voids. Though some are able to accept this and thrive thereafter, I became lost without direction. As I left home as an adult I became susceptible to the world… because I was lost being alone.

I had heard at church that my body was a living sacrifice for God but what does that mean to me?! I didn’t know that God would lead and guide me through the pains and struggles of life. Even when God tried to lead me away from danger I didn’t know it was God and continued down the same dark road. Again, I didn’t know love or even the worldly definition of it, worldly love = sex, no, if I felt like having sex, I did. Society continues to tell us it is okay to do this, “explore your sexuality,” and then we are degraded and deposed when we do. Once I met the man who would be my last boyfriend, I changed. But God was not done with me.

(Now I stop here to say that this is my story and just because this was my intervening point does not mean that you can or should wait.)

Even after I left that part of my life behind, I was nowhere near where God wanted me. God began to harden my heart and began to make me despise the life I was living, to the point where depression would cause gaps of isolation, a loss of zest for life and my family, my words and actions were sharp and painful to others. God allowed me down a dark path and what was buried in me a long time ago began to surface, I need God. I needed to get back to the safe place I knew a long time ago, where I was told what to do, when to do it, back into the guideline I had run away from. It was 18 years of trying and fighting to control a life that was only a gift from God to fulfill His purpose for me. “For you have been called to live in freedom, my brothers and sisters. But don’t use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature. Instead, use your freedom to serve one another in love” (Galatians 5:13 NLT). We all are not given that much time. “How do you know that your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like in the morning fog – it’s here a little while, then it’s gone” (James 4: 14 NLT).

With the love that God has graced me with for my children, He has made me aware of all children. My heart hurts as I think of the worldly obstacles my children must push through in order to seek a God-filled life. Culture/Society and/or inexperienced parenting would have us believe that we are nothing more than what we are told and taught but we are not bound by what the world thinks because God says, “for I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11). So we do not have to live by the world’s standards because God already has a plan for us. Had I known, I would have saved myself years of life where I spent chasing worldly love when I had no idea what it was.

Now regardless if you are a teenager, adult, or whatever stage of life you are in. Regardless of how deep you may think you have fallen or if you think nobody wants you or loves you. You are still God’s child and He loves You the same exact way He did while you were being formed in your mothers womb. As soon as we invite Him in, He will come like any father who hears their child calling. It may not seem fast enough to us but He will come.

*Never feel as though you are alone. Someone has felt the same way you do at this very moment. Someone else feels as though they have no one to talk to. But on the contrary God inclines His ears to us, whether you feel close to Him or not and you may seek Christian counseling or a ministerial team member that you are comfortable talking to. You are never alone.

Amen! Amen!

They came, they saw
They left in awe
The good, ‘godly’ show
That we’ve come to know
They waved their hands
And shouted, “Amen!”
But they can’t reap their labor
It’s been spoiled by their hearts to the neighbor
They cried out to God
But He saw the depths of their hearts
Judging the sin of their fellow man
Lent no hand, crossed legs,
     retrieved church fan.
They appear to be holy, they appear to be righteous
But it might just
Be for the show
A show God didn’t orchestrate I know
Because He said to love all man
And He would judge all through the land
But we appraise ourselves above our worth
We take God’s job; we become the new church
The ones who proclaim God’s word
But has it reserved
For the fellow friend
And not those lost within
Searching for an answer to their pain
Unaware for their sins that the Lamb was slain
But they were frowned upon by the members
They never got to surrender
Their broken hearts to God
Those self-righteous hearts were too hard
To see that church is not for just the ‘Godly’ but the broken
For the souls seeking the One who was chosen
To save us all from our sins
To take the broken hearts in His hand to mend
But those who were weary couldn’t see past the noses
              in the air
They looked for a sign, they went for a prayer
Now the love of God was hard to be seen
The smiles on the church faces don’t show what they mean
Lights, camera, ready for the show
This wasn’t the plan of God I know
Because He said to love all man
Not just the good, not just our friend
So, please cleanse me O, God!
Remind me it is by Your rod
We are comforted
And it is Your word when confronted
That shall be sweet as honey
To a broken man’s ears
It’s Your words that will soothe his fears
Remove my pride
And my self-righteous high
When a fellow sinner
Comes to be delivered
I don’t want to be the new church
Because without You we’re not worth
Much at all
I don’t want my pride, I don’t want to fall
So dim the lights on the stage we’ve made
Close the lens, the scene goes to fade
Though we try, let the sins of our own life no longer hide… 
                from you
Lead us to the unpopular, the broken, those cast aside
Away from the show
Because that is Your plan I know.

Copyright 2017



It’s That Verse (Romans 12:14)


Bless not curse
Your enemies is the verse
I struggle with.
The verse that compels me to quit,
Throw up my hands
Lord, I’m not that grand
I’m not there yet.
With anger and stress my days are met
The feelings I can’t hide,
There’s so much I keep inside.

Lord, open my heart, work on me
For You once counted me an enemy
Yet, You loved me through.
Once upon a time I knew
Not the pain I caused,
Never did I take pause
But Lord, now Your love has
Made me aware of my past.
You have covered my sin
By Your blood, this race I will win.

You see there is no condemnation.
My Lord feels no indignation
To me, because I left, I ran away
Chasing worldly comforts that weren’t
          comforting enough to stay.
Lord, thank You for waking me
Clearing the darkness from my eye to see.
Thank You for bringing my sin to the surface,
So that You could expose my pain with a purpose.
Now they will know that it is only through You
A life of turmoil can be renewed.

Humble me Lord, because in their place I once stood,
And at times I fall, yet I rise because You are good.
Through Your love for me
I can do all things.
Bless, yes bless my enemies, let me do
Good to those who persecute.
Let them feel Your grace,
Remove their sins without a trace.
Cleanse them from their iniquities.
Break them in love until it’s You they please.

Copyright 2017